Friday, October 19, 2012

I'm going to be honest...

Hey guys, I have been so busy with essays for school. I am so tired, and my tiredness and isolation has made me extremely depressed. I know that I am bipolar and it makes life extremely difficult. I feel like throwing things, screaming, crying, and laugh at myself for being so stupid. It's completely ridiculous...  
  I have found myself crying a little bit more then I probably should be. I don't know what to do anymore. I am happy I can basically vent to the world, without them knowing how I am. 
   I've been listening to a pretty big varity of music lately: everything from Testament, Jeffree Starr, Secondhand Serenade, and AFI.
   Have you guys ever felt extremely alone like that? I feel relieved that I have had over a 10,000 read my blog... for some reason it gives me peace. Odd right?  
 I have been playing the drums like CRAZY! My and my friend are starting a classic rock band, apparently I am pretty good...he is AMAZING at guitar...better then most I have seen. I guess that means something that he asked me to play for him.  
 I saw the movie Sinister last Sunday with my sister. It made me never want kids....EVER! Let's just say the movie really isn't scary, but more on the gory and creepy side. Awesome storyline.   
  Halloween is coming up and I have NO idea what I am going to be! I have been invited to college costume parties and I need to know what to be...defiantly something sexy ^_^ ... I finally don't feel sluty showing off some boob-age LMAO.
   Recently I have been studying different religions and cults for fun... I realized there is SO much out there I don't know and wish to learn. I mean, I have my own beliefs, but it's always cool to study others... I promise I am NOT creepin on people. 
  Me and my friend (from Norway) have started a fan page for our favorite drummer... which I am not going to reveal right now...let's just say we actually have a lot of hits...and pictures that NO ONE has been....pretty kickass.   
 I REALLY hope you guys are doing great... it's going to be an awesome autumn...it's my ultimate favorite season...it's so beautiful! Enjoy it take nature in!
PCE and love,
PJ

 Testament Live in London: Raging Waters (one of my ultimate favorite songs)

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