True Love?

Dear people who read all my blogs, I wanna talk about true love. I don't remember if I hit on this subject before or not. If I did, this is a refresher, if I didn't, welcome.
   So I know someone, who seems to fall in-love with someone different each week. Gone through 4 different people in 2 months. She called each of them true love. I am a little confused her because I learned that true love is with the same person forever.
   Question today: is it possible to just "fall in love" with someone like that instantly? I am not talking about a bunch of different people all the time. I am talking about the right person just like that. Just knowing that it's forever. Am I wrong to say I think love takes time to develop into something beautiful and meaningful.
 I have had my share of boyfriends. There was about 2 that I actually thought I could see myself with forever. But, problems arise, not the type of problems you can work out, but major flaws that you know you can't fix and that will defiantly jeopardize a relationship right away. It took time for me to figure that out.
     So ask yourself this: what really is true love?

Sexy sexy sexy....girls....

This is just another example here of how many bands are always degraded girls in their music. When I saw SlipKnoT in concert I was thankful that they don't do that. I haven't listened to one SlipKnoT song where they do that.
    Even some of the Christian bands degrade women. They are making women feel bad about themselves if they don't fit a certain criteria. Not every girl looks a certain way. We all have different features that make us perfect.
   I had to stop listening to a lot of that music because it was actually making me feel pretty shitty about myself. I haven't been feeling very  good about myself lately. My self confidence level has dropped dramatically. I don't wanna get up in the morning, I don't wanna eat, and I spend the whole day in my pajamas. I just don't really feel the worth.
    I'm serious guys. That's my life. Doing exactly opposite of what I wanna do. You see, I have had 3 guys in my life cheat on me, and they were all very close together. I don't know if that says something about me or not. I am really that horrid looking? Am I really so messed up that no one could possibly love me?
    Well world, even if I can't feel good about myself, I really want you all to feel good about yourselves. It's not fair that we let the world win on what we say is right or wrong in a girl. It's not fair that we have to pick and choose what we are and what we can be. Be yourself. No one is better at being you than you!

Relationships...

READERS, let's talk about relationships. I for one have been in MANY relationships, the problem? All with the wrong guys. They all lied, cheated, or used me. Not the type of feeling a girl wants to feel. Especially when you find out one of them had been sleeping with your best friend (^%@^%$@^!!!!).
   Anyways, I am finding that relationships REALLY suck. I honestly don't know if I ever want to be in one again. I feel alone a lot, but I feel like I get my heart broken a lot more then I probably should. I am seriously a cool person. I've been told I am not the ugliest person in the world, I try to stay interesting, and I have a MAJOR love for other people. Just because I may get annoyed with someone doesn't mean I don't love them.
    Relationships don't really seem to get better. I watch all these couples so happy and together, and nothing seems to be wrong, and I always wonder how real that really is. Can someone be truly that happy with no problems? Can it happen. What do you think?

I'm BACK!

Hey people's, I'm sorry it's been months since I last wrote anything. I was finishing up some school shit. Now I am done and I have all summer...well, until the end of August then I'm back again. Anyways, I recently discovered the band Falling in Reverse. I know they have been out since like 2010, but spare me, I am a little slow when it comes to figuring bands. The band has old singer Ronnie Radke as the singer. He was released from prison with what he says is a complete new attitude and new life. I personally believe him. He's been on his best behavior, and his music isn't as depressing and dark as the Escape the Fate shit. It's actually kind of funny.
     Anyways, I've been thinking a lot about eating disorders. I honestly don't know why it's just been on my mind a lot lately. I guess it's because I have personally been struggling with my weight. I have been told for a while now by my mother that I need to lose weight. I've been healthier and trying, but it's a process.
   I guess you could say a lot has been going on and that's why I have written anything in a while. My older sister, whom I love and respect, was diagnosed with skin cancer a couple of months ago, and it keeps coming back when she removes it. I can't stand to see her go through all this. She is getting married soon and this should be the last thing that she has to worry about.
    I was also going through a drug-withdraw because my doctor thought it would be smart to just TAKE me off my medication. So my body decided to tell me to piss off, and I ended up in the hospital one night. It took me 2 weeks, almost 3, to start getting back to normal. I kind of understand what drug-addicts go through, and it really REALLY sucks.
   I have found myself singing along to Lady Gaga lately (LMAO), and I am not even that big of a fan of hers, but I have found myself listening to her more and more. I guess her songs are a little catchy. Anyways, I really hope you are all enjoying your summer, USA, or if you are in Europe or wherever in the world, if you are in school, I really hope everything is going well for you. I hate seeing people go through pain :).