Sexy sexy sexy....girls....

This is just another example here of how many bands are always degraded girls in their music. When I saw SlipKnoT in concert I was thankful that they don't do that. I haven't listened to one SlipKnoT song where they do that.
    Even some of the Christian bands degrade women. They are making women feel bad about themselves if they don't fit a certain criteria. Not every girl looks a certain way. We all have different features that make us perfect.
   I had to stop listening to a lot of that music because it was actually making me feel pretty shitty about myself. I haven't been feeling very  good about myself lately. My self confidence level has dropped dramatically. I don't wanna get up in the morning, I don't wanna eat, and I spend the whole day in my pajamas. I just don't really feel the worth.
    I'm serious guys. That's my life. Doing exactly opposite of what I wanna do. You see, I have had 3 guys in my life cheat on me, and they were all very close together. I don't know if that says something about me or not. I am really that horrid looking? Am I really so messed up that no one could possibly love me?
    Well world, even if I can't feel good about myself, I really want you all to feel good about yourselves. It's not fair that we let the world win on what we say is right or wrong in a girl. It's not fair that we have to pick and choose what we are and what we can be. Be yourself. No one is better at being you than you!

What I've Been Up To...

I haven't been on here in a while and I apologies. I've just been so busy with graduating. I am college bound!  I've been doing a lot more artwork also. I will put some more up later. Anyways, I've been expanding my music interest to things like Marilyn Manson and Alice Cooper. I am finding out I am loving all the genres within rock music. I love old school rock from the 80's, punk bands from the 90's, metal, and horror punk rock. It's all so fasinating to me. There is so much offered out there!
    I am also doing a performance in the street in Grand Rapids this coming Thursday with a group I go to UICA with. I don't know exactly what it will be but it sure will be interesting.
    I have been working on a lot of scenery paintings so far this year. It's something I am good at and enjoy. I am hoping to get some practice in this summer regarding art practice for myself. I should be so lucky to...

I've been listening to some good old fashion Murderdolls.... makes me wish good old punk never died! I mean, I love Marilyn Manson and these guys, but I feel like horror punk is trying to hard to be like every other band. It's not working out well for them. I love their old stuff and style, where the guys sometimes surprised us in skirts. They had the old goth/punk to them. Sometimes I feel conformity is hitting every band. SlipKnoT (love their music) used to be old school metal, now they are turning into another BFMV band! UGH! KEEP YOUR ORIGINALITY PEOPLE!

Thrash Metal

I have found myself listening to a lot of different thrash metal lately. I guess sometimes I get myself too involved in the metal scene of the 80's. I get mad because I MISSED THE FREAKIN BOAT! Being born in the 90's it's like I missed everything important. You might be think PJ music isn't EVERYTHING but for me, it's part of everything. I love music! I am a MASSIVE music junkie. I crave it. I have to listen to it all day long. I tell people about it before hand how I love Testament and Slayer and Megadeath. I don't want them to not know killer bands.
   Luckily I get to see Slayer and Anthrax in concert this summer. BADASS! Along side SlipKnoT which is legendary in their own special way.
   Anyways, I guess this is my ode' to thrash metal bands. My their music live through all periods of time and prevail!

Exploring Downtown Grand Rapids

I had so much fun last night exploring the artist lofts and apartments of downtown Grand Rapids, Michigan. I was with a group of students from UICA, and we were looking into living options downtown. It was so much fun! I got to meet starting artist and find out what their lives were like.
   I've always loved the city, and always wanted to live in an apartment downtown. I like the people, art, and music found there. It would be completely BA to move down there. Good thing is it's not super expensive. Especially the part of town I was in. It would be near my college, and I think it's a good idea to look into in the future for my career. The whole artist places was called "Avenue for the Arts." It was a great program. I'm thinking about it. I don't know if I am really good enough yet. I wanna become a tattoo artist. I think I would be good. I designed my own tattoo I have so I think I just might have a chance. It's a good field and they get paid not too bad. I never wanted a fancy job like a doctor. I just wanted to enjoy what I do for a living. I think that's the most important. I could minor in Fine Arts. Do some medical training in college and BANG: tattoo artist.

Spring Day... I Hope

Dear readers, it's another normal beautiful sort of spring day in Michigan. I guess if you say 50 degrees and sunny is spring, then whatever. It's inspired me to spend more time outdoors. It brings out my inner-hippie that's been hiding all winter. I feel like putting on a Grateful Dead album and painting. I honestly feel like painting a million colors. They don't even have to make sense together. They can just go together. They can be beautiful. I hope that one day I can make such a beautiful painting that me myself doesn't HATE! Anyways, been listening to some SlipKnoT and W.A.S.P. a lot lately. It's cool man!

ROCK MAYHEM FESTIVAL!!!!!!

Guess who's going? ME!  Guess who hasn't been to a concert in the longest time in the world? ME! I am sooooo pumped! I bought my ticket last night online. The line up has bands like Slayer, SlipKnoT, Anthrax, and Moterhead. It's going to be one kick-butt night! Especially since I get to share it with special people around me. Anyways, I am so excited. I missed the Testasment concert that I wanted to go to more than anything in the world, so I was hoping maybe this would make up for it. Seeing a few bands from the 80's and early 90's take the stage will be wonderful, even if I am not even close to the stage. Whatever.
     Anyways, I am the type of junkie who will probably end up making my own t-shirt just for the event and where it forever.
     Anyone else out there planning any great concert trips this summer? I think it will be the perfect summer for them. I think too many people have drawn away from the music scene and we should bring it back! It's under appreciated, and deserves all the worship that follows great bands.

SPRINGTIME FEVER

With the new weather and the high temps, I haven't felt much motivation to do anything. The heat makes me feel so tired. I have been sucking at the drums, and my passion for art has almost disappeared. I hate this weather. I hate feeling lazy. If it was a little cooler I would LOVE to go outside and draw some scenery. That sounds beautiful. What do you think?